I can't believe I haven't updated this since Christmas! Wow! Well things have been very busy & somewhat chaotic here on the island. Doug has been gone on and off since I moved here & will be on the mainland for another month =(. I miss him like crazy! Life has been like a rollercoaster, but we've made so many good memories along the way. Some really fun things that we have done are: Kayaking @ Kailua Beach, Going to the Shack w/ our friends again, paintball, & a photoshoot w/ 2 beautiful horses @ North Shore. Other than that, we have watched 2 full seasons of Friday Night Lights (looking forward to the 3rd season!), I've convinced him to run with me outside (he's hard to keep up with), and we've just spent alot of one on one time together. Since we've been apart again, we have both started working out again & eating really healthy. I'm actually starting to love doing cardio! I used to HATE it, but I'm getting great results from it & it also gives me so much energy. The gym is seeming less and less like a chore, I actually look forward to working out. What counts the most is the diet part though... 85% of your healthdepends on it, the rest is exercise. Even if you look skinny on the outside, it doesn't mean you're skinny on the inside =). Doug is really busy with the Marine Corps... so we have been trying to make the most of the time we do get to spend together. I'm going to start my new job in the near future & hope to be enrolled in school again by this summer. I have made some really good friends here in Hawaii, which has made military life easier to deal with. It's nice to be around girls that are going through the same thing at the same time. I love them all! I've learned so much in the last few months... And I feel as if this sums it up...
The Invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's desire.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow,
if you have been opened by life's betrayals,
or have become shriveled and closed for the fear of future pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain,
mine or your own,
without moving to hide it, fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy,
mine or your own,
if you can dance with wildness and let ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic,
or to remember the limitations of human beings.
It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true.
I want to know if you disappoint another to be true to yourself,
if you can bear the accusations of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty,
even when it is not pretty every day,
and if you can source your life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure,
yours or mine,
and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver moon "Yes!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone,
and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn't interest me who you are now or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself,
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments
Your life is not a coincidence, it is a reflection of you.
- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
